Feeling Good and Losing Weight

April 29th 2012. You know? I am feeling good. I am happy, finally. I do often worry that Mark is not paying any sort of child support what so ever and is not trying to find a job but open a stupid recording studio. Like that is going to help any? Selfish, pure selfish. He only cares about himself. He is disgusting. Other than when he makes his existence known I am truly happier without all of that weighing me down. Speaking of weighing me down... I have been losing weight. I am down 17 pounds since the start of this year, and that is including bumps in the road. That also increases my happiness. I am now where near my goal weight, don't get me wrong... but I am at least heading in the right direction. I am also going to church today. That makes things better. My sweet children light up my life. They are the most wonderful gift I have ever been given. They fill me with so much love. I would not be the same person without them. We have so much fun together. I love just looking into their beautiful faces. Well, I guess I don't have that much to say.

Finally Single Again

April 20th 2012 Well, my divorce was signed on April 9th by the judge and recorded on April 13th. I am really happy that the chapter in my life can finally be over. It definitely relieves some stress. I have also been working on myself. On my self esteem and self control. I have created a plan to make myself better and it has been going great for the last almost 4 days. Day one I lost 1.8 pounds, day two I lost 1.2, day three I lost 1.4. Awesome. I have worked it in that I don't even need to cheat. There are little fun items in each day. I know I can do this this time. I will do it. I am worth it. Today is a new day and I am happy.